[REVIEW] ”You are a BAD, BAD mother.”//Little Disasters by Sarah Vaughan//

[NOTE: The main character suffers from a serious case of postpartum depression + there are mentions of child abuse. Please keep that in mind before starting the book.]

Once a woman becomes a mother, she is rebornwith her center of life now being her children. Her every waking thought is consumed by anxieties about their well being and her dreams? Filled with hopes for her lovely little ones.

She would do anything to protect them. Anything at all.

And Jess was no different. She was just a mother, trying to protect her childrenfrom those little germs everywhere, from strangers and predators, from unnecessary exertions – but most of all from herself. SHE was her children’s biggest threat, her mental condition irrelevant to anyone else because no one – not even her own husband and her best friend – tried to see past her mask, to actually notice how distressed she had been lately. Everyone pinned it down to her obsession with perfection, her reluctance to place any trust in anyone other than herself. Her anxieties were irrelevant – something shrugged off as overthinking and even a certain kind of childishness.

But what will happen when she’ll be made to choose between protecting one child or keeping her family from falling apart?

What would she do?

SHE will fall apart instead, in her desperate tries to keep her loved ones from harm; to make sure that nobody snatches her children from her. She will break down like never before – subject to people’s scrutinizing eyes, judging stares.

Reading Little Disasters felt like I was thrown into a world where I would NOT have ventured if I knew what I’d be taking on in the long run. Oh my! This book tested my heart’s patience to bear shock way too much. 

A baby has been hurt and her mother is in the line of fire of suspicions from everyone around her. They think the worst of her. 

You are a bad, bad mother.” 

Her thoughts keep playing tricks on her mind and her outer world just reflects more of the same.

And the worst of all? Her best friend – the paediatrician who admits Betsy, Jess’ daughter – is suspicious of her friend as well. Lizthe smart, the quick, the no nonsense doctoris torn between her duties as a friend and her responsibilities as a professional. And the way Sarah has captured her dilemmas is outstanding, worthy of praise. 

I can’t tell you how much I adored the author’s way of weaving a gripping plot around these few but VERY intriguing charactersthe way Liz’s memories entwined with Jess’ present circumstances left me in complete adoration of Sarah’s writing! Not to mention the ease with which she manages the delicate timing of the flashbacks ABSOLUTELY DELIGHTFUL. It added to the grim excitement that surrounded the plot as I flicked page after page, desperate to find out the EXACT relation between these two friends and their circumstancesthe past and the present.

Little Disasters is just as much about motherhood and it’s trials, it’s highs and lows as it is about marriage, the role of a partner, and the need for communication. I was left riddled with a series of scenarios that started and ended with a bold IF ONLY:

If only Jess had shed her fear of being judged and came clean to Ed about her mental state.

If only she hadn’t tried to be so PERFECT and ORGANIZED all the time.

If only Ed had picked up on his wife’s trauma a little bit earlier, and without contempt and horror in his eyes.

When you have lived with someone for more than a decade, you get to know about how they like to do certain things and how best to approach themespecially when they are shelled in and emotionally vulnerable. And the fact that Ed had been too busy with printing money to give his wife and her hard work and struggle at home a good thought was really irritating to me.

But then, so was Jess’ inability to put aside her fears and confess. Much as we’d like them to be, MEN ARE NOT MIND READERS. They usually don’t suspect anything is particularly WRONG unless it’s on a rather HUGE scale OR unless you yourself point them towards the thing that’s been bothering you. We want them to just KNOW but they almost never do. They just tend to train themselves to take things on the face value because its easier and less emotionally taxing to do so. So being OPEN with your partners about what’s been bothering you IS THE BEST THING TO DO.

But of course. for a perfectionist like Jesssomeone who had had a serious case of OCD and Cognitive Personality Disorder (which everyone had been unaware of) – this was difficult to do. And I completely understand! But that doesn’t take away from the fact that this behaviour of hers led her into the extreme circumstances she found herself later onbeing held under suspicions of being the sole cause behind the serious skull fracture of her baby girl.

Her situation made my eyes well up more than once. Her desperation, her sadness, her frustration at not being able to touch her baby girl, to hold her or any of her children was too painful to witness.

Can you imagine? Taking a child away from her mother?

And then the way Liz’s mother’s secrets crept up just in time to escalate the plot and give it even more intensity and meaning left me thrilled AND cold – both at the same time. THE HORROR ON MY FACE WHEN I FOUND ABOUT WHAT REALLY HAPPENED TO HER BABY SISTER CLARE WAS BOTH GENUINE AND VERBAL. I couldn’t cope with a revelation like that! 

And now, I let out a deep sigh, as I finally close the book – feeling as if I have physically endured what Jess and Liz mentally went through. And it’s tiring. And yet, as Galadriel said, hope remains for people who are true and brave of heart. Who come face to face with realisation that forgivenessfor yourself AND for others is the only true way to rise above pain and hurt. 

Look, I didn’t know what I was taking on, how emotionally screwed up I will feel, how utterly helpless in the face of Jess’ confusion and frustration, at the thought of a few months old baby lying in the hospital with her head all but cracked open, from the horrible and pitiful secrets that engulfed Liz’ mother’s past AND present

BUT YOU DO.

YOU HAVE A CHOICE! 

Remember, if you do decide to read Little Disasterswhich, despite all the tears and agony, I still 100% recommend keep in mind that you will be thrown amidst an emotional and psychological storm that will leave you feeling helpless.

And the fun part? You will love it nonetheless. Every single second of that suffering. 

SOO??!?! Have you read Little Disasters yet? Did you like it?! SAYY YESS!!!
What’s your favorite book by Sarah Vaughan?
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY – Have I convinced you to read this one?! I hope I have BECAUSE IT IS AWESOMEE! You cannot afford to miss it, I am telling you!

PLEASE DON’T MISS OUT ON THIS ONE?! *puppy dog eyes*

46 thoughts on “[REVIEW] ”You are a BAD, BAD mother.”//Little Disasters by Sarah Vaughan//

    1. AWW!! Thank you SOOO much, Nicki! I REALLY DID! And hey, while posting the review on Goodreads, I found that you loved it too!!! THAT’S AWESOME!!! ❤ ❤ what did you think of that Charlotte though?! MAN I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING! *gasp*

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      1. SERIOUSLYYYY!!! That image of her dropping in unannounced, standing at the door, drenched in the rain, and smiling creepily – *shudders* AHHHHH!!!

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    1. AWWWW!!!! YOU GET MEEEE, Tessa!! IT WAS EXACTLY THAT!! PLEASEEEE ADD IT TO YOUR TBR! IT’S AWESOMEEE!!!! ❤ ❤ ❤

      Thank you soo soo much for always leaving such supportive and sweet comments!!! THEY ALWAYS BRIGHTEN MY DAYY!!! ❤ ❤

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      1. I really think I need to add a goodreads shelf called “Books Recommended by Rain” or something 😁 But this one sounds particularly great, I need a copy! It seems like the perfect reward for when I’m done with exams 😊❤

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      2. Awwww!!! 🤣🤣 MAKE IT! And I will make one for the books YOU recommend!! 😍😍 OH MY GOD IT’LL BE AWESOMEE!! A shelf dedicated for the books recommended to us, yeah?!? 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 LETS MAKE IT!

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      3. And no, I’m not on Twitter 😉 I’ve toyed with the idea of creating an account for a while now, but came to the conclusion that I definitely shouldn’t even consider it before my exams are over 😂 The depths of the internet are just so much more enticing than memorizing thousands of pages of notes – I would fail for sure 😅😁 But if I do eventually decide to join, I’ll make sure to let you know!! ❤

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    1. AWW! Thank you SOOO MUCHH!!! ❤ ❤ I am soo veryy glad that you liked it! AND OH MY GOD YESSS!!! YOU GOTTA READ THIS ONE! IT'LL KEEP YOU ON YOUR TOES FOR SUREEEE!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. TOTALLLYYY, Lisa! There is soo much going on in Jess’ mind that it keeps you on your toes! IT’S A FANTASTIC NOVEL!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ And it will DEFINITELY hit you in the feels! 😉 </3

      Thank you so so much! I am so very glad that you liked it!

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    1. OH I TOTALLYY GET THAT, Rook! It does rather hard in the feels and so…best avoided if you are not feeling up to it right now! But heyyy…ITS GREAT TOSEE YOU BACKKK!!! Missed your posts! ❤ 🙂

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    1. AWWWW!! Thank you so so sooooo muchh, Kat! I am sooo very glad you liked the review! You are too sweet! THANK YOUUU FOR YOUR BEAUTIFUL COMMENT, hon! ❤

      And pleaseeee read it whenever you get the chance – I would LOVE to read your thoughts on it! ❤

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    1. AHHH!!! YESSSS!!! I EXACTLY KNOW WHAT YOU MEANNN, Kels! I FELT THAT WAY TOOO!!! DAMN I9 NEED MORE BOOKS LIKE THESE IN MY LIFE! Any suggestions?!

      AWWW!!! THANK YOU SO SO SOOO MUCHHH!!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ YOUR COMMENTS GIVE MY POSTS LIFE, I am telling you! ❤ 🙂 😉

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      1. Suggestions? Yes!! In the Absence of Miracles (https://frombelgiumwithbooklove.com/in-the-absence-of-miracles-by-michael-j-malone-bookreview-intheabsenceofmiracles-michaeljmalone1-orendabooks-indiecrimecrawl/) and Breakers (https://frombelgiumwithbooklove.com/breakers-by-doug-johnstone-bookreview-doug_johnstone-orendabooks-indiecrimecrawl/) are amazing and smashed my heart in the very best way! Breakers was my fave book last year! Also: Epiphany Jones, mini review coming this Saturday!

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    1. OH MY GODD YESSS!!! The way Jess’ mind and heart have been laid open for the reader to dive in is ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS! I am sure you will LOVE this one, Mads, whenever you get a chance to read it! ❤

      Thank you sooo muchh for your lovely comment! I ALWAYS ENJOY TALKING WITH YOUUUU!!!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. OH MY GOD YESS!!! It is horrifying, emotionally shattering and YET I PROMISE YOU WILL LOVEE EVERY SECOND OF IT – and the ending is so so hopeful;! ❤ ❤ Please give this one a try – you won't regret it! ❤ 🙂

      AWWW!!!! Thank you so much for your lovely,m lovely comment, Hsinju! I am soo glad you liked the reviewww!!! ❤ ❤

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  1. Helluva review, Rain! I don’t know how you do it. I don’t know anyone who does it like you either. It really captures your experience with the book with incredible accuracy. Amazing how it also felt like such a torture but a pleasant one to discover??? Hahah I actually read her other book, Anatomy of a Scandal and I’m glad to hear that this one turned out to be fantastic for you too. 🙂

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    1. AWWWWWW!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 That’s….soo sweet of you, Lashaan! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR KIND WORDS!! 🥺❤️

      It really was an amazing read! If you are ever in mood of a good psychological thriller, this one will be the perfect choice! AND YES THAT ONE! It’s on my Amazon Wishlist!! So…did you like it? OR DID YOU REALLY REALLY LIKE IT?!

      Ps: So sorry for the late reply! 🌟

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