[MY BOOKISH OBSESSIONS] A Beautiful, Little Fool// Zelda’s letter to F. Scott Fitzgerald//

“His heart beat faster and faster as Daisy’s white face came up to his own. He knew that when he kissed this girl, and forever wed his unutterable visions to her perishable breath, his mind would never romp again like the mind of God. So he waited, listening for a moment longer to the tuning fork that had been struck upon a star. Then he kissed her. At his lips’ touch she blossomed like a flower and the incarnation was complete.”

The Great Gatsby is one of those stories that never leave my heart. I might not always be aware but it always stays in the background. I can hear the slow and tragic music in the depth of my being – clear and inviting.

And while reading Zelda Fitzgerald’s letters to her husband I couldn’t help but imagine her as much of a fool in love as was Gatsby.

As are we all.

When a heart is tender and the night is dark, it clutches on to the nearest hope it can find, promising to never let it go. Zelda’s world was a cage for her and Fitzgerald was her hope of freedom. He brought with himself the wild promise of the unknown and she fell in love.

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Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald [1920]

I look down the tracks and see you coming – out of every haze & mist your darling rumpled trousers are hurrying to me – Without you, dearest dearest I couldn’t see or hear or feel or think – or live – I love you so and I’m never in all our lives going to let us be apart another night. It’s like begging for mercy of a storm or killing Beauty or growing old, without you.

I want to kiss you so – and in the back where your dear hair starts and your chest – I love you – and I can’t tell you how much – To think that I’ll die without your knowingGoofo, you’ve got to try to feel how much I dohow inanimate I am when you’re gone – I can’t even hate these damnable peopleNobody’s got any right to live but us – and they’re dirtying up our world and I can’t hate them because I want you so – Come Quick – Come Quick to me – I could never do without you if you hated me and were covered with sores like leper – if you ran away with another woman and starved me and beat me – I still would want you I know –

Lover, Lover, Darling –

Your wife.

(Before you all start fuming about the way she says ”starved me and beat me”, just know that I AM IN NO WAY PROMOTING THIS OR SAYING THAT IT’S ALRIGHT, OKAYY??? Okay! *sighs*)

She was his greatest inspiration. Her words fed his hungry imagination, and her passion turned his dreams to reality. Her mind was a deep well, containing a vast treasure of inspiration which he fed off of and which she allowed, much too willingly. 

Zelda, as much as I have known about her through the study of her letters, felt bound to Scott, body and soul, with a love so deep that he could take and take and there still will always be enough. She reminds me of something Daisy said in The Great Gatsby,

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And she WAS a fool indeed.
A beautiful, little fool.
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What did you think of this letter? Did you like it? What do you disapprove of?
Also, are you guys familiar with the series Z: The Beginning of Everything (the story of Zelda and Scott)?

16 thoughts on “[MY BOOKISH OBSESSIONS] A Beautiful, Little Fool// Zelda’s letter to F. Scott Fitzgerald//

  1. I liked the Great Gatsby, i studied it for a little while! There is so much to Zelda and Scott which is reflected in the novel! Despite there being some questionable elements to Scott’s life and his portrayals, the inspiration he drew from Zelda is so beautiful and clever it really resonates in his work and the readers of it. Great Post!! 💖💕😊

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    1. I ABSOLUTELY ADORED IT AS WELL, Kb! 😭😭😍😍❤️❤️❤️ And I AGREEE!! Having known a bit more about their relationship, I have come to realise that everything (or at least the books that I have read of him) he wrote was somehow an extension of his own relationship with his wife!!

      I AM SOOOOO GLADDDD YOU LIKED THE LETTER, hon! AND I AM SOOOO GRATEFUL FOR YOUR AMAZING COMMENT!! ❤️❤️💕💕👻👻😘😘☔️

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      1. I love seeing how the authors life and relationships reflect their writing! Especially when they use their partners for inspiration- its so sweet! 💖💕😊😍 Thnakyou!! I love posts like these!! context is so important to a novel or text, especially classic ones!! 😊💕💖

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  2. OMG THAT LETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want someone to write me a litter like that some day….. confession time though….. I didn’t like the great gatsby…………. *runs away and hides* I AM SORRY RAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FORGIVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE *puppy dog eyes* <3333333333333333333333333333

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    1. WHATTTTTTTYTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!?!?!?!?!?!!???!!??!!?!?!?!? 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱 *stares endlessly into the space, trying to comprehend the meaning of this betrayal* 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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  3. I read about the Fitzgeralds in a fiction book where they were fictionized as friends of the time traveler. I can’t remember the title of the book (it’s my pre Goodreads reading time) but I always loved how in love they were presented!! ❤️

    I know readers think its okay to judge others for how they love but I think we shouldn’t. Each generation is different from the one before and after. If she feels that keenly well then good luck sister!! I hope he doesn’t abuse you. 😉

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    1. I AGREEEE!! It’s just..I HAD to include that little disclaimer because who knows? People would have started bashing me for “promoting” such thoughts? 🤣🤣🤣🤣 I have seen it happen and I just…I DONT LIKE IT! 🤣🤣🤣🤣😅😅😅
      AND YOU ARE SOO FUCKING RIGHT IN SAYING THAT – we have NO right to judge them. Who isn’t a fool in love? Who doesn’t get away with their feelings and says things that they don’t actually mean? 🤣🤣🤣 But yeah after reading that, anyone’s first reaction will be “damn, she is in love and no mistake” 🤣🤣🤣🤣👻👻👻👻👻
      It was refreshing to discuss a woman’s letter for a change. They usually contain raw emotions, all those disjointed thoughts – written as they came, it all adds to the beauty of it, don’t you think?! 😍😍❤️❤️❤️💕💕
      ALSOOOOO!! DANI I WOULD LIKE THE NAME OF THAT BOOK PLEASEEEE!!! 😍😍😍❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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  4. I read Gatsby in the past year or so and I have to say I wasn’t as enthralled with it… but if I think if I had seen it as semi-auto-biographical I might have appreciated it more! This is really neat- thanks for sharing.

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    1. Even if you didn’t like it that much, you are right that if you connect it with the events that happened with the couple in real life, it becomes all the more intriguing! 😍😍❤️❤️ If you feel so inclined, please watch Z:The Beginning of Everything …it made me see his works in a whole other light – for better or for worse!

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