If you find your heart sighing and writhing for the same person OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN, Can you resist? Can you overlook those cries and go back to seeming completely and utterly at peace? No. I BET YOU CAN’T.
But that is exactly what Catherine Earnshaw seemed to do. AND AT FIRST, I HATED HER FOR IT. She abandoned Heathcliff to marry Linton KNOWING THAT HER SOUL WILL ALWAYS HOLD A TORCH FOR HER DARK LOVER – The only one who really ever understood her deep heart and valued her for it. I have read things like anyone can adore you while you are shining bright but WILL THEY STAY BY YOUR SIDE WHILE YOU ARE AN EMBODIMENT OF HELL AS WELL? Will they patiently caress that part of your nature? Will they? Heathcliff did.
But now I know why she did what she did. AND WHY SHE REGRETTED IT AFTERWARDS. You see, human beings are so easily deluded by shiny things, as I mentioned above, that for that moment, everything else seems to stop existing for them. She KNEW HEATHCLIFF WAS HER ALL But she fancied that all that could MAYBE be overshadowed by all the respect and comfort she will gain if she chooses Linton. YES. SHE KNEW IT’LL BE DIFFICULT. SHE ADMITS THAT SHE WILL FOREVER WANT HEATHCLIFF WITH ALL THAT BREATHES IN HER but I KNOW WHAT it means to be deluded under a sense of obligation and comfort. I KNOW how persuasive the mind can be. You allow it to take control -EVEN FOR A LITTLE WHILE- and it will cause havoc for your emotional self. Heart does not speak. It whispers. It is meek. It understands. It wants peace. OUR MINDS, ON THE OTHER HAND, DESIRE DOMINION. So, now do you understand why Cathy abandoned Heathcliff?
Under a delusion. Out of an imaginary obligation.
And the very moment you start regarding other people’s opinion, your spirit, your ORIGINALITY, DIES. Or maybe I should say it WITHERS AWAY INTO NOTHINGNESS. Slowly BUT surely. You cannot expect purity to thrive in a mind-dominated body. You become a rational being and WHILE I AM NOT SAYING THAT IT IS A BAD THING, I do believe that it is not necessarily good for you spirit to always assume that whatever decision you allow your heart to make is going to be the cause of your doom – one way or the other.
AND WHILE SHE DID GET WHAT SHE THOUGHT SHE WILL – stability, comfort BUT NEVER SATISFACTION. Linton could not find a way to suppress her passion – which spread like wildfire through her body AND BEYOND. Or should I say that he was NOT CAPABLE OF IT.
He REALLY, REALLY did not deserve her because the value of a passionate heart was beyond what his senses could ever formulate. I don’t hate him. No. I just feel that whatever the choices that were made by those two – ONE CAN CLEARLY SEE THAT THEY WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE.
YOU CANNOT TAME A WILD BEAST. You can only learn to love it’s heart KNOWING that it’ll provide you with what you need. Catherine Earnshaw was pure chaos. Linton was like warm sunlight on a wintry day – enough to cause you comfort for a while but YOU DO START TO GET BORED OF THAT GENTLE AFFECTION REAL SOON.
No matter what anyone may like to tell themselves, I do believe that although sunny days have their charm, there is THRILL IN STORMS. THEY REMIND US HOW TO THRIVE. Not just exist.
Cathy’s love for Heathcliff ran too deep into her veins that there came a time when she doubted if they weren’t one soul. AND say what you will but if she was to be destroyed either way, I’d rather have her destroyed by the hands of her own passion than by the lack of it. She tried to walk a thin line without the right alignment and it’s no wonder it backfired.
SHE WAS TRAPPED. SHE TRIED TO SUPPRESS HER REAL NATURE – thinking it was too hellish. And she could not find any justification for her wild ways from anyone other than HEATHCLIFF – someone who she deemed would be her destruction.